Well, it’s been 8 months since my last newsletter and post. I decided it was time to shut down for a while and regenerate. The world has been shaking the last 3 years at least. In those three years I have been on a journey deep into my heart. Learning who I am, what I want, and finding value in myself as both a woman and an artist.
During that time, if you have followed my work you have seen me go from light to dark. I have weaved through illustration and energy. Sometimes pulling from the abstract and at times pushing everything into line. My work has definitely mirrored my life.
My personal life was challenging as I went through some family tragedy as well as dealing with critical health issues that impacted me at every level of my being. All the while I continued to paint and challenge myself while trying to fit into a box of the market I had chosen.
This was a good thing and it was a curse. The market I have worked in has brought much into my life. I have learned through my clients that I can control my health better using food as medicine vs. just going to the doctor. I have found companionship in my spiritual quest as some of my peers have shared the same views. I have been worked hard by publishers to the point where my eyes have gone blurry and my hand swelled up just trying to meet deadlines.
I have done vending shows and found myself given the golden opportunity to be featured artist, featured speaker and keynote speaker.
All of this I found inside the box of my faerie niche. But something was missing.
Within the confines of my work I was losing touch with the rest of me. Being exposed to the market and marketing in such an intense way was pulling me further from my muse as well as my instincts which brought me to this place in the beginning.
I couldn’t feel the magic anymore. Only the smooth and glossy production of creating “merchandise”.
Art was leaving the building. I almost quit.
Then two men that I know and respect got on the phone with me. Both of them artists and creative geniuses. They told me to paint for me. To put away the noise and just stop for a while and do what feels good. In fact, one of them told me that it would be a very sad day for him if I put down my brush because it made up such a wonderful part of me.
Apparently that was enough to stop me from running away from myself and bring me back to the canvas. Only this time I had unplugged the phone, stopped sending newsletters, stopped booking shows and just painted for the fun of painting.
It pulled me out of my niche. It pulled me out of my head. It pulled me back into the dance with my muse.
She woke up and began to just run around painting whatever.
Having let go of so much the release left room for a new beginning. With the turmoil and changes in the industry and country over the last 3 years there was a death of the “old way” in the business I have been in. There is now a new way. New growth that I can see, like when the fires burn the trees in the mountains and the ground is covered in delicate fresh seedlings. A new crop is forming.
I know through all of my meditation and soul searching after 8 months that it is time to release the residual life and live in the freshness of this new day. A new pattern, a new direction and a larger picture have all come clear.
I used to paint and then shrink my paintings down. From now on I intend to reproduce them full size and/or blow them up. I have finally found my happy place and a new level of confidence. All of this from resting.
If you have found yourself running in mud I would like to respectfully suggest you rest for a bit too if you can. Quiet the world around you long enough to see and hear something other than the white noise that has plugged your ears and covered your eyes. I did. And now I have a new website with all new work to show for it.
I will continue to paint for my niche of faerie as it brings something into my life I can’t get anywhere else, but I have opened the door to expand myself beyond one realm so that I may continue to experience the many different facets of life through my art and exploration.
It was the good move for me.
If you would like to see my new website you can go to www.LisaSteinkeArt.com and catch a glimpse of the direction I have been moving toward.
Otherwise you can see the massive changes I’ve made to my old site at www.TheFaerieGathering.com , either way please let me know what you think.
Feedback is always appreciated.
Thanks for being patient and staying on this journey with me as I pull the stickers from my pants and continue down my unexplored path.
See you on the trail.